Middle of the Mundane…
The end of February. I can honestly say that I am happy it is here, but at the same time… Can it be over with? Can we please have spring and the warmer weather that comes with it?
I am one of those people that suffers from “cabin fever”. I live in North-Central Wisconsin. Right now, we have a good 18-20 inches of snow on the ground. I have 4-5 foot snow banks lining my yard. To go outside and do anything seems to require a ton of effort. Just to go out and get my mail in the afternoon requires boots, jacket, hat, etc. Don’t get me wrong, I love the winter and being able to go sledding and snowshoeing on warm days….but…
This brings me to to my magical life. I don’t have the energy, or maybe it is ambition? I don’t know what you want to call it, I just don’t have it right now. It is so bad, honestly, the thought of doing anything with regards to the Full Moon seemed like a lot of work. I know it all has to do with the “cabin fever”. If you look at the time of year… really, it is kind of a dead time. The earth is still sound slumber awaiting the arrival of warmer weather (at least by me it is) which won’t be here until closer to the equinox or later, which most likely will be later. I won’t get a chance to work in the gardens around my house until at least mid to end of April. That is a lot of time yet! It is no wonder that one can get so discouraged this time of year. At least in the summer months between Sabbats, one has other yard work that can be attended to.
As I sat and thought about this, I needed to reprogram my train of thought. Instead of focusing on what I couldn’t do and how much I wanted the warmer weather to be here. I decided that this was the perfect time to work on me. When I say “me”, I mean the inner me. My spiritual self needed time to rest as well, and with all of this negative thinking I had going on, I wasn’t doing myself any justice.
I started making a point to sit down and meditate. Now, that normally wouldn’t be a problem for anyone, but I was having an issue. I needed to force myself. I meditated on being at peace with myself. I wanted to feel comfortable in my skin that was itching for warmer weather and for all of this snow to be gone.
I found in the first couple of days, I felt much better about just myself in general. I started to see things in a more positive light. The biggest notice I saw in myself was that I was starting to see the subtle signs in nature that spring was really not that far away. The buds on the trees were starting to pop out a little bit more. The birds were singing, where I don’t remember hearing any birds making much of a noise at all in January. The sun was indeed poking out of the horizon in the morning a bit earlier, and just the same, lasting a bit longer in the sky in the afternoons.
I realized it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it was, I just needed to change my perspective and do a little bit of work on the inside, to notice positive things on the outside. )O(